A Dilemma

I'm breaking down slowly cause I got attached,
surprising right?
No. It shouldn't be.
Cause the day we met, I told you,
"Be careful, I'll get attached"
And now it's me who miss you the most,
This isn't a letter of anger,
But of confusion.
And regret and simply helpless tears rolling down the cheek,

I am now a fish in the sea stuck in a net,
I used to be the net in which you came and called it your beautiful safe world,
And then you broke through, leaving me to wonder.
To question me, my own personality.
Was I not good enough for you?
Was I enough but not much more?
Was I not the extra shining sparkle that you were looking for?
Was I just another bridge you crossed?
Now not only your secrets do I keep, but I fear mine being published,
Cause now you're just a stranger with all my secrets.
This isn't fair.
Well this isn't anger, or apology, just a dilemma

Nothing

I'm feeling some type of way and it's not good,
I gave and I gave,
And I tried, oh I tried.
But in the end, you said goodbye while I shattered and cried,
Maybe I just had no place in your life,
I mean I get it :)
I'm the embodiment of a curse,
And the day you cut me off and pushed me away,
I was reminded that I'm just temporary,
And not a person meant to stay,
I heard things are well,
And you're doing great,
I'm happy to hear that,
Even if what we had now felt fake,
It seems you're better off without me,
And you'd rather be with your closest people than me,
I understand I'm the stupid one here,
For believing I could mean something to you,
This is where trust issues come into play,
So I guess I'll say thanks for the memories,
And the time you've wasted on me,
I'm not mad, more than sad with myself,
For becoming an eyesore in your picture,
You've erased me completely from your scripture,
And maybe I'll do the same,
No matter how much I'll feel the pain,
But I won't ever take your name,
That I was nothing, NOTHING,
Just a replaceable piece in your game.

Remember, I loved You

If tomorrow starts without me,
And I am not there to see
If the sun would rise and find your eyes
All filled with tears for me
I wish so much you wouldn’t cry
The way you did today
While thinking of the many things
We didn’t get to say
I know how much you loved me
As much as I love you
And each time you think of me
I know you will miss me too
But, when tomorrow starts without me
Please try to understand
That an angel came and called my name
And took me by the hand
And said my place was ready
In heaven for above
And that I’d have to leave behind
All those I dearly love
But as I will turn to walk away
A tear will fall from my eye
For all my life I’d always thought
I’d die in your arms
Now it seems almost impossible
If I’ll be leaving today
I’d think of all the yesterdays
The good ones and the bad
I’d think of all the love we shared
And all the fun we had
If I could re-live yesterday
Even for a while
I’d say goodbye and kiss you
And maybe see you smile
But then I fully realize
That this could never be

But when I will walk through heaven’s gate
I’ll feel so much at home
When God will look down at me
He will say-
“This is eternity; the life on earth was past
You have been so faithful, So trusting and so true
Though there were times you did something
You knew you shouldn’t do
But you have been forgiven and now you’re free
So won’t you come and take my hand
And share the rest of my life with me?”

So, if tomorrow starts without me
Don’t think we’re far apart
For every time you think of me
I am right here, in your heart.
And if you never see me again,
Remember I loved you.